9 months ago...

When I'm walkin' with you

I watch the whole room change

Baby, that's what you do

No, my baby, don't play

Blame it on my confidence

Oh, blame it on your measurements

Shut that shit down on sight

That's right

June has been a hiphop dancer since her early childhood and there she was, dancing in the middle of the street with her dance crew. her confidence was so attractive that it caught so many people's stares... people's attention. she was the center of the attention and she liked the attention, it boosted her confidence. she would dance with such charism; her facial expressions, her stare, her smile, her moves, everything. she danced in a way you would have been both intimidated to even glance at her but also you would have liked to enter her game and dance dirty with her in that dance floor. it was her moves that gave it all in, you'd have wanted to grab her by her waist, just share that dance with her and end it up by passionately making out with her. but hey... we're in public and you don't know how to dance as good as her so we'll stop at that.

that's exactly when Mia met June, it was a hot day in Fall. you know when Summer just ended and it's still hot in Fall? yeah, it was just one of these days. she was directly drawn into June, it was all physical and she just had all of these things that made Mia feel so much lust in her body; she craved for hot making out sessions with her, she craved for that delicious hot body to be eaten out, it was basically all about lust. was it even the right season to be this horny? well, fuck it, there wasn't a right season to be horny for Mia. back to their meeting, or more like Mia drooling all over June's body, Mia was a complete nervous wreck to even talk to the hot chick. she felt so intimidated by her, she was so hooked on by her moves and she was completely in awe. hum, what is this called? lust at first sight? probably.

next thing you know, they were both making out at a pub's restroom. no even need of presentations with Mia who went straight to the point: « i'm really not good with words but i could let my lips talk on yours, baby. », it was one of the hottest make out sessions Mia had. she left a trail of soft kisses from June's neck to her collarbones which she really found hot because they were defined,

Chapter 6

lust at first sight

she had her hand on June's inner thigh and for her, she was still pretty going soft on her, way too soft compared to the imagination she had. she wouldn't like a hot stranger to find her agressive at first, would she? it all stopped when June received a call from a certain guy called Dylan, she had to leave as soon as possible but before leaving, she took Mia's phone and added her phone number by naming herself "some hot girl 💋". little did she know, she wasn't just some hot girl for Mia, as soon as Mia decided to make her hers.

soon after that, they met a few times to hook up. the sex they had was amazing, it was the first time Mia didn't let something like this be a one time thing, she didn't want to, she was in love with June's body. it wasn't only that though, June was really smart and Mia has a really soft spot for smart people as she's easily attracted by one's brain: sapiosexuality. they wouldn't only have sex, they actually had deep conversations that just would end up with sex and Mia getting high. they got along so well and they grew pretty attached to each other to the point June introduced her to her dance crew that was composed of: Dylan, the call from the other day, he's a cool attractive dude who kind of is a fuckboy but not because he's breaking girls' heart on purpose, he's just too dumb and dense. he looks like a douchebag but that's just probably because he dated June before which was enough for Mia to see him that way and for the record, he dresses up like those popular jocks at school. Mia was the one to break up with him though, she didn't like him back. he has short soft and fluffy brown hair, his eyes were a mix of green and grey, it is really a pretty color on him, he has muscles and particularly abs. anyway, he was the perfect jock. there was another guy called Tyler, he, on the other hand, looked really soft. he has really curly and soft hair, he always had them dyed in another color whichever suited both his mood and the season. he had shadows under his eyes, he always looked like he had 3 hours of sleep which wasn't the case, he was just always tired. on dancing sessions, he'd wear a bandana. he had a special style that would kinda always vary according to his mood. everything had to be according with his mood. also, never count on Tyler for advices, he looks soft but he'll give you the worst advices, if you ever found yourself in a situation you have a crush on two people, he'd probably tell you to fuck with both. finally there was this girl called Emily, she was attractive but not in the same way June was. actually, the whole crew was attractive and their beauty emerged even more when they were together. Emily looked like a bad bitch, she always had this resting bitch face, she always looked like she's plotting to kill somebody but really she's the kind of person who'd get all smiley whenever she saw a dog on the street, she'd always be on the verge to cry whenever she crossed one. she always dressed up badass which didn't help for people to often think that she was a bad bitch. and if you needed advices, she was the only person you could actually count on. anyone else in the group was a complete mess.

everyone thought Mia and June would be such a nice couple except Dylan who was really clueless, it wasn't even because he was jealous of Mia, he was just one of the most clueless guys you'd meet. June and Mia always had this ambiguous relationship, it was obvious they were both into each other. they had an on and off relationship not because they would argue, they just would sometimes go on weeks without talking to each other until someone ended up calling the other for the hundredth time at night because they were either drunk or high but they obviously needed the other to calm some urges. Mia didn't like getting worked up on such things, she was really carefree. she said she didn't do relationships and every now and then, she would hook up and it was mostly one night stands but it didn't completely mean she didn't do relationships, she actually still dated countless people but it was just never serious so it wasn't even worth mentioning. it's been a while since her last serious relationship, it kind of left her with painful scars even though she was fine by then. she just didn't like catching feelings, it made her feel like her feelings were locking her up. she was just a teenager scared of falling in love after all. on the other side, June lowkey wanted to be in a relationship with Mia. she didn't wanna make it obvious and she didn't wanna make it clear, she always made it ambiguous as she was scared of being rejected. she couldn't bear the idea of losing Mia after all this time she had tried to be not just a one time thing for her. she just said she was content with their relationship, they were still more than friends and they were both special to each other so it was all that mattered. June was scared of labels, she didn't wanna put a label on their relationship because she was always scared of the title being less than they were so that's why she never bothered asking Mia what was their relationship but she was in sort of denial as she didn't wanna heart Mia's answer. but deep inside, she always waited for that day where Mia would ask her out, the day she would be ready to fall in love with her and that would be the day where she'll be the happiest.

so... this is why they found themselves in an awkward situation. by then it was already the next morning, it was like a few hours from that making out session between Dylan and June. Mia was home with Luna as she's helping her run away but she was alone in her room as the other girl was sleeping in the living room. June sent a lot of texts to Mia around 3am which was always the time they'd come with a sudden urge to have sex. it was the time of bad decisions. it's actually Mia's time; it's the time where every thought happens, it's the time impulsive urges happen and it's the time where your fingers touch the keyboard of your phone, debating if you should send that text or not. Mia didn't reply though, she just sent one text saying she wasn't in the mood of anything and she said it really coldly, it was obvious she was upset so obviously June called her multiple times but Mia shrugged it off. besides she doesn't even know why she's so upset. maybe it was the fact that it was Dylan, maybe it was the fact that she was afraid they would have the same relationship they have, something that isn't a one time thing, something that is on a long term, something even more special than they have, maybe they're back together. maybe it was everything. she was scared of all those suggestions, it would mean that June would have less time for her or even worse, she wouldn't even care about her anymore. the whole idea was frustrating. this is why she was scared of catching feelings all along. at that moment, she just wanted to be alone with her mind, with her music.

I don't want your body

But I hate to think about you with somebody else

Our love has gone cold

You're intertwining your soul with somebody else

as Somebody Else plays, tears started flowing on her cheeks. it's not that she hated the fact that June could have sex with other people, she did that too. she wasn't keen either on her having other people but that's what they sort of agreed on, like for fuck's sake, they're not even in a relationship. for sure, she knew it, that deep inside, she didn't only want June's body. she grew attached to her personality, to her soul, to her own person. and she hated seeing the same bond they have with someone else, she hated seeing her soul being intertwined with someone else's. no, it really wasn't about the physical bond she was jealous of anymore. it was that emotional bond they had. she didn't want June to cry on someone else's shoulder, she didn't want her to be comforted by someone else, she didn't want her to catch feelings for someone else. it was really frustrating, she knew she didn't love her in that way but at the same time, it hurt seeing her with someone else.

it's both a fucking bless and a curse to feel too much. to love too much.